{"id":26710,"date":"2018-10-19T09:08:30","date_gmt":"2018-10-19T09:08:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/?p=26710"},"modified":"2018-10-19T09:08:30","modified_gmt":"2018-10-19T09:08:30","slug":"jam-rrite-tuj-mthane-je-dera-e-huej-mkane-msu-mire-me-shujte-mos-me-qite-za","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/jam-rrite-tuj-mthane-je-dera-e-huej-mkane-msu-mire-me-shujte-mos-me-qite-za\/","title":{"rendered":"\u201cJam rrit\u00eb tuj m\u2019than\u00eb je dera e huej, m`kan\u00eb msu mir\u00eb me shujt\u00eb, mos me qit\u00eb za\u2026\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"

Un\u00eb nuk kam em\u00ebn, ma kan ngjit\u00eb nja sa mem thirr\u00eb e mem urdhnue, ama em\u00ebn temin nuk um lan\u00ebn kurr\u00eb me ba. Historia e eme asht\u2019 e trisht\u00eb, asht\u2019 e dhimbshme, zor q\u00eb don\u00eb kush me ngue, zor q\u00eb don\u00eb kush me dijt\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Asht\u2019 ve\u00e7 nja prej historive pa za e t\u2019zakonshme. Asht\u2019 ni histori jete q\u00eb sot nuk e kam ma. Nuk muj me e qit\u00eb as me e hek\u00eb asni shkronj\u00eb, se koha jeme ka shku, bashk\u00eb me andrrat e mija t\u2019vajznis\u00eb.
\nDit\u00ebn q\u00eb un` kam le ish kan\u00eb dit\u00eb e zez\u00eb p\u00ebr tw tan\u00eb n\u00eb shpi, bile i tan\u00eb katuni ia kish rreh\u00eb krah\u00ebt me keqardhje bab\u00ebs e i kishin pas than\u00eb her\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr djal\u00eb ishalla, qekaq, asnji fjal\u00eb me e urue p\u00ebr nji jet\u00eb t`tre q\u00eb ka ardh\u00eb n\u00eb tok\u00eb, te tan\u00eb ul\u00eb kryet tuj dale prej odes, e baba i turpnuem q\u00eb s`mujti me gju pushk\u00eb p\u00ebr me i kallxue te tan\u00ebve q\u00eb i ashtx shtu nji pushk\u00eb n`shpi.
\nNana e shkret\u00eb m\u2019ka dasht\u00eb gjith\u00eb, po as ajo kurr\u00eb qik\u00eb s`ka dasht\u00eb me pas\u00eb, ki me hek\u00eb qika jeme kish pas than\u00eb n\u00ebn vajin e dhimtve q\u00eb e kishin d\u00ebrrmu.<\/p>\n

Historia e nan\u00ebs asht\u2019 e njejt\u00eb si e jemja, ve\u00e7 se nana ish pajtu, e une kurr\u00eb s\u2019kam mujt\u00eb.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ka m`kan\u00eb than\u00eb po ju tham. Nuk jam kan\u00eb kurr\u00eb n`shkoll\u00eb e as knim e lexim nuk m`kan\u00eb msu, e gjith\u00eb kam dasht\u00eb me dijt\u00eb \u00e7ka kan\u00eb ato librat e vllaut t`vog\u00ebl, qysh me dijt\u00eb me knue si ai, kurr\u00eb s`kam msue, e gjith\u00eb kam dasht\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Kam pas\u00eb ba be, q\u00eb \u00e7ika jem ka me pas\u00eb fatin tjet\u00ebr prej temit.<\/p>\n

Jam rrit\u00eb tuj m`than\u00eb je dera e huej, m`kan\u00eb msu mir\u00eb me shujt\u00eb, mos me qit\u00eb za, me e ngue \u00e7do kan\u00eb e vet\u00ebn me e myt\u00eb. Nji dit\u00eb m`a vun\u00ebn kan\u00ebn, m`than\u00eb q\u00eb m`kan\u00eb dhan\u00eb p\u00ebr dikan\u00eb, m`kan\u00eb dhan\u00eb si nji tesh\u00eb q\u00eb ma s`ju vyn\u00eb e i jepet dikujt tjet\u00ebr.<\/p>\n

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\nMu kerkush s`me veti, \u00e7ka du une, \u00e7ka du me than\u00eb une, a due me shku a jo.
\nJau dhan\u00eb nji plum si dhurat\u00eb t`funit, n\u00ebse kisha refuzue me shku te ai q\u00eb shpija m`a ka zgjedh\u00eb me t`njejtin plum ai ka mujt mem vra, e gjaku jem ish kan\u00eb i hupt. Jeta jeme e pavleft\u00eb.<\/p>\n

S`e kam njoft\u00eb kurr\u00eb, s`e kam dijt\u00eb kush asht\u2019.<\/p>\n

E frik\u00ebsueme, kam dasht\u00eb me kan\u00eb n`kthin\u00ebn tem t`vorf\u00ebn e t`ftoft\u00eb, po jeta jeme kish marr\u00eb tjet\u00ebr kahje, e un\u00eb s`kisha ma fuqi me luftue kund\u00ebr, ve\u00e7 me e pranue nji fat t`mallkuem e t`njet\u00eb si t`shoqeve t`mia.<\/p>\n

Jam derrmu shum\u00eb here, po kush zanin s`ma ka ni, kush s`me ka vet\u00eb najhere a jam lodh\u00eb ? A kam nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr naj\u00e7ka ?
\nKam pas\u00eb shpesh nevoj\u00eb me nejt\u00eb vet\u00eb, me pushue shpirtin e molisun, me flejt ma shum\u00eb, e mi dhan\u00eb pak jet\u00eb vetit. Nuk e maj men ni dit\u00eb ve\u00e7 temen. Gjith\u00e7ka u kan\u00eb p\u00ebr tjert\u00eb. Un\u2019 jam kan\u00eb p\u00ebr tjert\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Kam dasht\u00eb shpesh here me ngajt\u00eb e lir\u0113 ledinave t\u2019blerta, me u shtri ve\u00e7 pak e me lujt\u00eb sikur dit\u00ebt e feminis\u00eb. Gjith\u00eb kam jetue me mallin e qatyne dit\u00ebve kur s\u2019kam dit\u00eb gja p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn. Hera e vetme kur kam rrnue qysh kam dasht\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Kam dasht\u00eb shum\u00eb here me fol\u00eb, me brit\u00eb, me kajt\u00eb, me iu than\u00eb atyne q\u00eb jam njeri, po kush s`me kish ngu, m\u00eb kishin thirr\u00eb emna, m\u00eb kishin kesh\u00eb dit\u00eb e nat\u00eb, se qashtu kan\u00eb ba me ato t`rrallat q\u00eb kan\u00eb guxue me brit\u00eb, q\u00eb s`kan\u00eb mujt\u00eb me rrnue qashtu.<\/p>\n

Jam kan\u00eb gjith\u00eb dera e huej, pa em\u00ebn, pa t\u2019drejta, pa za.<\/p>\n

S`kam gjet\u00eb kurr\u00eb dikush mem kuptue, me m`i fshi lot\u00eb e syve, e me m`i shnosh plagt\u00eb e shpirtit. Rrall\u00eb kam kesh\u00eb, m`paten msue se asht\u2019 m\u00ebkat edhe kjo.<\/p>\n

Kam pas\u00eb ba be e rrfe q\u00eb fati i \u00e7ik\u00ebs tem ka me kan\u00eb ndryshe. Q\u00eb \u00e7ika jem ka me pas\u00eb em\u00ebn, andrra, e t\u2019drejta, njejt\u00eb si djemt e mi.<\/p>\n

Une gati shkova, qatje ku ma nuk ka kthim. Nuk dij\u00eb shum\u00eb p\u00ebr atje, athu a kam me pas\u00eb em\u00ebn ? A kam me kan\u00eb edhe atje vec ni der\u00eb e huj ?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Un\u00eb nuk kam em\u00ebn, ma kan ngjit\u00eb nja sa mem thirr\u00eb e mem urdhnue, ama em\u00ebn temin nuk um lan\u00ebn kurr\u00eb me ba. Historia e eme asht\u2019 e trisht\u00eb, asht\u2019 e dhimbshme, zor q\u00eb don\u00eb kush me ngue, zor q\u00eb don\u00eb kush me dijt\u00eb. Asht\u2019 ve\u00e7 nja prej historive pa za e t\u2019zakonshme. Asht\u2019 ni […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":26711,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-26710","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-lajme"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26710","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=26710"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26710\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/26711"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=26710"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=26710"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/radiostargjilan.com\/web\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=26710"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}